Starting the second week of the new year right with a blog post!!! I am still in disbelief the first week of 2018 has already come & gone, but I feel truly blessed to be able to kickoff the year working on film. Today is my break day before I PA on another set tomorrow, & I wanted to finish writing this before I get busy/distracted again.
On a completely irrelevant note, I started writing this at Necessary Provisions three nights ago & I have to say the pork burger there was surprisingly delicious?! The pork patty was cooked to perfection, & the buns were toasted just right – it was the right amount of soft & crispy (??). My only reservation about this burger was the rocket leaves – not a fan of this bitter vegetable.
Writing this was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I had initially intended to commemorate my first blog post of 2018 with a poem I had written, then I changed my mind & I wanted to put up photos that would highlight key milestones of my 2017 but I figured I had already done that through my instagram account, so I have absolutely no idea how to go about doing this. I did leave my shabby attempt at poetry writing here though, so if you wanna read it scroll down. Or don’t.
This time two years ago I was enjoying winter in Seoul, & this time last year I was probably packing for my 6-months exchange in NYC. This year, while I am stuck in Singapore, I am very excited to be working on film?! So I was part of the supporting cast in a student film 1-4 January, & I got the chance to work alongside amazing fencers, cast & crew. It was interesting to be on the other side of the camera since I have been behind it the past year or so. Some of us had to go through fencing “bootcamp” & let’s just say my thighs have not felt this way in a very long time. The last time I’ve ached this badly was probably at soccer practice back in Junior College – i.e. 4 years ago. Also got to work alongside Pierre Png that was cool.
Then I went on to assist with HMU/ Wardrobe for about a week on another student production, & I am particularly excited for this one to be completed because (1) I loved the script, & (2) the wardrobe/HMU was i n s a n e – think demon/God etc. Also very shookt that we were on time every single day?! I got to work with so many talented nice people [Special mention: @natstanto who made me ice coffee on our last day?!] Because we don’t have a crew photo, here is a picture of me taken on set.
A glance at 2017
What is a new year post without looking back at 2017? It was really the year I kinda figured out what I wanted to do with my life & that to me, is an accomplishment in itself. That said, while I am proud that I have been actively seeking opportunities to bring me closer to my directing dream, I’ve come to realise I became so fixated on film that I neglected everything else – my health, my family, loved ones. I think I was too ready to give up too much for a dream that may or may not come true, & I didn’t like that. So this year, I’m going to take it slower & live a little. I’ll still do film for sure, but I’ll make sure to do so at a comfortable pace.
I wrote about my year briefly in an earlier blog post, & so I’m not gonna do that here again. 2017 started with a bang, & ended with a bang. I am thankful to have spent New Years Eve with new & newer friends (thx @Jack for food & opening your house to us), & the last moments of 2017 with the fambam at home.
Looking ahead: 2018
I used to write New Year resolutions for myself every year, but I end up losing sight of them by the time it was March. So this year, I decided I would list down reminders for myself so I’ll be a better, happier person in 2018.
- Be a better version of yourself everyday.
- It’s ok to not know. I spent a lot of 2017 trying to figure myself/life out, & I’m still confused. Someone wise told me there’s no point doing that because who we are today may change tomorrow.
- People come, & people go. Treasure those who stay, & let go of those who don’t.
- Give without expectations. Be kind.
2018 is gonna be a great year I feel it!!!!!! Also, here is said poem.
Ok, I tried. I’m not super proud of the last verse, but I ran out of ideas & got lazy. I may have mentioned this somewhere, but guess who is headed back to school next week?! I intended to take another semester off, but things did not work out as planned so I am on my way to finishing my degree. Tbh, I am excited to be back at school, but a part of me is scared for some reason. It has been a year since I’ve been back at NUS, so I guess that’s where part of the fear comes from.
On another completely random note, I watched The Greatest Showman with Lijie last night, and it was amazing!? The film is beautiful visually, & aurally. Zendaya , Hugh Jackman & Zac Efron performed beautifully. The songs are still stuck in my head. I enjoyed it. I’m unable to write coherently right now what I feel about the film, because I am still processing it but this one is definitely worth the watch. If anyone needs company, I am down.
Today is also the day another chapter of my life ends – three-ft. What started as an ambitious venture became quite a flop. Homes, J & I are headed to the bank to close our joint account today, but I guess with every failure, we rise from it. At least we tried.
I’m looking forward to what 2018 has in store for me, & I hope you all are too!! Here’s to a 2018 filled with joy, laughter, tears, & kindness!